Dark Clouds

The toughest thing is not yourself. No, you never doubt your commitment and dilligence. You used to doubt your competence, but thats history. You're quite sure, at the end of the day, it will be a job well done. The question is, at what expense?

The circumstance you're in puts you in a very poor position. You struggle to stand on both feet. You cant give everyone immediate attention at all times, its just not possible. The people around you, the one closest to you, probably the ones that give you the most comfort are the ones who put you in the most difficult shoes. Thy empathise with you, but no one really knows what you're in. Thy always seems to forget, that you're a wounded soldier crucified in the middle of an eternal bloodshed.

At times, you wish you're all alone, that you can go through these tenacious and endless waves of blitzkriegs with zero apprehension.

Peace at heart is long overdued but the anguish inside you,
shall not leave.